He Loves Me!
This devotional is a series of excerpts from Wayne Jacobsen's life changing book, He Loves Me! Download a PDF of this book by clicking the link below.
Day 13: A Father You Can Trust
To have the relationship God desires with you, and for which your heart must cry out, you simply have to learn to trust him.
I know that is far easier to talk about than it is to do. We've learned all our lives that trusting other people will only leave us frustrated and disappointed. Even the people who might have loved us the most probably failed us at some point. The lesson our flesh teaches us from a very young age is take care of yourself, because no one else will.
Perhaps everyone you've ever trusted has betrayed that trust. Maybe you even feel that God has betrayed your trust when he didn't do things for you that you thought a loving father would do. If the truth be told many of us have been exploited by people who came to us in God's name, claiming to know God's will for us, who only wanted to exploit us to meet their own needs.
My heart goes out most of all to those whose earthly fathers betrayed their trust and whose past is marred by failure and brokenness. I know some of you reading this book, keep doing so because the message stirs you. But every time you read the word Father something cringes inside of you. It's not a term of endearment to you, but one that scratches at old wounds.
For you, Father only conjures images of abuse or abandonment. It amazes me that so many who hunger to know God had fathers who were so broken they couldn't even reflect the smallest hint of his love to their own children. Either selfishly seeking their own pleasure, or using you as a punching bag for their own pain, they left a wake of wounded children who don't know what it is to have a father.
Betrayal by the people we most want to love us can leave deep scars. But even these are not beyond God's ability to heal and redeem. In fact, the reason those wounds hurt so deeply is because God created us to be loved by a Father that puts even the best earthly examples to shame. Even those of us who had good fathers, can't imagine how much greater a father he really is. Even the best fathers, as we saw in the last chapter, can't hold a candle to the love the Eternal Father has in his heart for you.
It may take awhile, but God can help us not define his fatherhood based on the failed record of broken humanity, but let his fatherhood define what it really is to be loved by the most awesome Father in the universe. So even if the word father doesn't convey the most tender image to you, please don't write yourself out of his house. Learning to trust him is the most difficult thing any of us will ever learn to do. If I can understand that for a stray puppy cowering in my front yard, how much more does the Father of heaven and earth understand our wounds and our insecurities.
With incredible patience and love, he coaxes us out of our fears to embrace him. He waits for that moment when suddenly we know we are safer in him than in any other place we could be. It may be timidly at first, but turn toward him and abandon yourselves to trust him in the smallest way you can.
He understands how afraid you are that you'll be disappointed once again. But he's still there patiently extending his hand to you. He will try to get closer, until you cower away in fear. Then he will back off so as not add to your pain, hoping his gentleness will one day win you over.