He Loves Me!
This devotional is a series of excerpts from Wayne Jacobsen's life changing book, He Loves Me! Download a PDF of this book by clicking the link below.
Day 43: Trying to Earn Points
God is not disillusioned with you, because he had no illusions about you in the first place. -Gerald Coates
For my dear friend, the words came with great pain. For me, they signaled an incredible breakthrough in my own relationship with God. The juxtaposition couldn't have been stranger.
In the last few months he had watched his wife grow more distant and threaten to leave him. He had done everything he could to prove his love to her and to let her know that he would be willing to change anything to save their relationship.
But none of it had worked-not the new car he bought her, not the change in jobs she'd requested, not even his persistent words of entreaty. That morning she had left. He looked at me through teary eyes, "Wayne, I have come to realize that I have been trying to earn points with someone who was no longer keeping score."
In his situation I cannot imagine more painful words. My heart broke for him, and we spent the rest of our lunch together sorting out his options and finding out how I could support him in the difficult days ahead.
His words, however, had touched something far deeper and had coalesced in a simple phrase what the Father had been working into my life over the previous months. What had borne tragic news to him had signaled new-found freedom for me. I had spent all of my life in the faith doing with God what he had done with his wife. I, too, had been trying to earn points with someone who was no longer keeping score, though for far different reasons.
My friend's wife had stopped keeping score because she was no longer interested in saving their relationship. My Father had never kept score because he wanted nothing more than to cultivate a relationship with me. He had done that, not by throwing my scorecard away, but by completely filling it out himself.
That's what Paul meant when he said that Jesus died on the cross so that, "the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit" (Rom. 8:4). For someone who had lived many years imagining God as the divine Scorekeeper, this moment was an epiphany.
God's not counting anymore, and that means I don't have to either!